i'd never thought things would be this bad. this is not what i'd expected before. ayah experienced an operation last few days. a minor one involving his heart. i know that this is serious but ibu told me that it's just a minor operation. so i thought ayah would be fine. yes, he was fine right after the operation but what made thing worse was, he fell down, about two days after that. to be exact, three times. two in the bathroom while the other one was while he's stepping on the stairs. pity him.
and because of this, ibu forced me to go back home. at first, i didnt wanna go back because i got tons of assignments and projects to be submitted early next week. i'm surely gonna do nothing at home because there's too much interruptions. but then, when i took some time to ponder, i believe that it's okay to sacrifice. they are my family, my own flesh and blood. so i went back home by bus with my nike bag and my oh-so-big drawing bag as company.
i felt like crying when i first saw ayah. he's fine. but i was thinking too far. what if ayah's gone? what would happen to ibu, to me, to us? but i didnt show my feelings and emotions. i just hid it because i didnt want ayah to feel sad to get hurt. i've been such an ungrateful son for the time being. i'm not satisfied with the things that i already have. i'd always want more. enough adeeb! it's time to repent and remorse.
talking bout next week is enough to send shivers and give me goosebumps. now at home, how could i do my work? with the relatives keep on coming to visit ayah and not forgetting the bunch of nosy little cousins. oh...my... these are such a disturbance. this is my main reason for neglecting to go back home at the first place. final project for architectural composition is due next tuesday, mandarin test on monday night, ctu presentation and test on tuesday night, economics test on wednesday and loads more. what should i do?
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