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I thought of giving something expensive for your special day but it was then until i realized that you've already got me and not forgetting Yeop and Alan. We are the best and the greatest gift that you ever blessed with. KAN? :)

Happy Birthday Ibu!

p/s: Two quarts of Baskin Robbins in the fridge. Hope you like them :)

i should have gained some muscles

dont laugh. haha, but i myself feel like laughing too. okay, whatever. just laugh. 

it was yesterday that i went back home from kampong. i chose to stay for a lil bit longer at kampong after the hari raya for no exact reason; saje. others went home on the hari raya's eve as ibu's working the day after that.

so i was on board with others; paklang, maklang, opah, ome, uteh, anje, acik, adik and niah. so it was 10 of us *including me in the seven-seater red Citroen. mcm dlm tin sardin huh? we've got to riba-meriba as there's no enough space. i needed to riba acik and i tell you what, it's freakingly menyakitkan. added to the pain, he was sleeping all the way through the journey. jeez, sabar je.

and that's the reason why i said that i should have gained some muscles, especially on my chest. so that i'll not be suffering from any pain from the pressure exerted to me anymore. HAHAHA

but, dont expect me to be like Mr. Muscle okay!

p/s: i should start jogging

yesterday was a misery. now is today

everything was miserable last week which i loathe the most. hectic week ever. i didnt get much of sleeping. there's even a day that i ddint sleep at all. this is due to the effing assignments, projects, tests and so whatever.

enough of yesterday. what now is now. it's study week now which means i dont have any class to attend. everybody's going back home but me and few of my coursemates. reason for not going back home? entah, malas. i dont even tell ibu that now is study week. again, entah, malas. i know i should have told ibu and i should be going back home. plus, ayah hasnt recovered yet and ibu's working. so ibu did ask me to go back whenever i got free time. at least there's someone at home to guard ayah. entahlah... i'll go back when i change my mind.

sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga

i'd never thought things would be this bad. this is not what i'd expected before. ayah experienced an operation last few days. a minor one involving his heart. i know that this is serious but ibu told me that it's just a minor operation. so i thought ayah would be fine. yes, he was fine right after the operation but what made thing worse was, he fell down, about two days after that. to be exact, three times. two in the bathroom while the other one was while he's stepping on the stairs. pity him.

and because of this, ibu forced me to go back home. at first, i didnt wanna go back because i got tons of assignments and projects to be submitted early next week. i'm surely gonna do nothing at home because there's too much interruptions. but then, when i took some time to ponder, i believe that it's okay to sacrifice. they are my family, my own flesh and blood. so i went back home by bus with my nike bag and my oh-so-big drawing bag as company.

i felt like crying when i first saw ayah. he's fine. but i was thinking too far. what if ayah's gone? what would happen to ibu, to me, to us? but i didnt show my feelings and emotions. i just hid it because i didnt want ayah to feel sad to get hurt. i've been such an ungrateful son for the time being. i'm not satisfied with the things that i already have. i'd always want more. enough adeeb! it's time to repent and remorse.

talking bout next week is enough to send shivers and give me goosebumps. now at home, how could i do my work? with the relatives keep on coming to visit ayah and not forgetting the bunch of nosy little cousins. oh...my... these are such a disturbance. this is my main reason for neglecting to go back home at the first place. final project for architectural composition is due next tuesday, mandarin test on monday night, ctu presentation and test on tuesday night, economics test on wednesday and loads more. what should i do?