His Nikmats and His Plan

Allah is really testing me with all of these nikmats and that makes me ponder sometimes. Am I really that eligible to be the recipient of His generosity? After all the wrongdoings that I've committed, all those times when I intentionally forget Him, the obligations that i'm obliged to, why me? Yes, why me?

Entahlah. People say that nikmat yang diturunkan adalah sejenis ujian daripada Allah juga. Maybe it's true. Allah is testing me right now. After all of the sins that I've committed, I still get His rezeki. He want to see my act towards this, how do I handle this thing. He want to see how wise you are. He want to see whether you would ponder and repent or still happily drowning deep inside the sea of kufur.

Astaghfirullah. Please bring me closer to you, ya Allah. Dear friends, please remind me whenever I forget about Him.

So the results for the third semester of my study was out few days ago and truth be told, I was terribly gobsmacked. Seriously terkejut. I never expected to get in the Dean's List for this semester since I believed that I wasn't giving my best during exams and so did to the projects.

Why, God? Why? Well this question keeps lingering on my head until now. I still don't know why and ending up assuming that Allah has His own plan for me. Perhaps?

Maybe this thing too has connection with my self reflection on the second semester's results which I posted somewhen ago;

Morals of the story;

1. It's always the relationship between God, your parents and yourself. Hold it firm.
2. Never underestimate your lecturers and talk behind their back. Tuan Haji Zambri, Encik Razak and Wang laoshi to be highlighted.
3. Peer pressure? You must handle it.
4. Don't hope too much. The percentage of not getting what you want is higher than getting it.
5. You know what to do.

First, yes. I think  so. Second, yes. I committed less mengumpat (maybe). Third, yes. I handled it quite good. Fourth, certainly true! I didn't hope too much. In fact, i just tried my best and tawakkal. Que sera sera. Fifth, apa ni? What was i thinking?

Entahlah. Anyways, thank you ya Allah and congratulations to all. It's your effort so be proud of it.

My third semester's results

Equilibrium of Life

Don't you guys think that time passes faster when we occupy ourselves with something; get ourselves busy and useful, do what we have to do even if it's forced or our own will? Well, it occurs to me. 

Semester 3, out of eight semesters in total, i could already feel the burden. Architecture has started to torment those who are devoting themselves. Generating ideas is not easy as it seems because everything  must follow all the design principles and elements. Plus model making, plus presentation boards, plus assignments, plus compulsory side activities, plus blablabla, these will just increase the pressure and to handle the pressure is not easy. True.

To be frank i would say that this semester is the time when i feel demotivated most of the times and lack in spirit, enthusiasm, energy or whatever you want to call it. And all of these happen for no definite, solid and legit reasons. It just happens as if i'm allowing myself to pass through this unstable phase of me not on purpose. This condition then leads to worse situation. For instance; unreasonably low carry marks. Therefore, to cover all of the loopholes here and there, second chance is given; by hook or by crook, to ace the final exam.

When talking about final exam, these are the papers that i should be acing them. Yes.

 

- Construction Technology 1

- Introduction to Structures

- History of Architecture 1

- Architectural Science 1

InsyaAllah.

Owh by the way, I need to get this latest album of Yuna named Terukir di Bintang. I've been playing the tracks almost most of the times because they are good. Really irresistibly good.

This is the preview of the Terukir di Bintang song. I love it.

For further info, how about reading this review on this album? 

Here:

http://accordingtohafizanmohd.blogspot.com/2012/01/yuna-terukir-di-bintang.html

Obviously, i'm one of those die hard fans of Yuna. Bye.

New Year. Resolutions?

When you have so many things to do and time mercilessly acting like a true bitch, you have to act smart. Acting smart requires some wisdom to make it happen and in this case, you have to prioritize things. First thing first as what they say. You can't do everything at a time unless you're gifted with super multitasking power. Do you have it? No.

Most of us humans must be very excited about new years that they celebrate it annually with the way they want it to be. Some would go wild and party hard while some would religiously celebrating it. To put myself in this situation is quite confusing since i don't belong to any of these groups. I don't go partying so i'm not pious enough or easy to say, near to God. So i would just assume myself as semi-ignorant observer as i care but not to much about this thing.

Resolutions. We make it every year, full of hope that we'll fulfill it but i believe that never we fully fulfilled it. Admit it. That is why some portion of realistic humans choose not to make any resolutions because they know the reality, loathing the fantasy of those who plan resolutions but never they fulfilled them. They call these people pathetic but at least they are daring enough to make resolutions, to make even the slightest change towards better themselves when new years come. At least, they try.

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction
Life is Wonderful- Jason Mraz

Losing something to gain something

This quote from a friend of mine if somehow true.

when time seriously stops

a week of escapade after weeks of torture.
so, should i go reckless?
definitely maybe.
we human have plans but never we know that we're gonna accomplish them.
definitely no.
tons of you-are-dead-if-you-procrastinate-them assignments to be done.

anyways, still going to enjoy this escapade while the time stops for a while.
no sleeping at 4am for assignments purposes.
continue my all time pleasure; reading.
movies as the twisted mind remedies.
off with all that craps that's been haunting me.

currently...

Okay, enough of Hari Raya mood. i dont know whether it's still hari raya or not but again, get enough of it. There are many things that have been happening for the last few days, or months or whatever it is. gosh, i feel like i've commited a very wrong thing for not updating this blog. aargh, whatever.

first and foremost. farewell and best of luck to all those who are now continuing their studies overseas. it's a tough thing out there so keep holding on and never give up. you guys really give me inspirations that one day, i promise to myself that i'll persue my study overseas too. insyaAllah, i'll be doing my master in architecture kat New Zealand or Australia. aamiin.

last week was such a busy and of course, exhausting week. i got a sketching trip to Penang with all the course mates. it was a sketching trip but i and of course, my friends too didnt really sketch. like of course lah kan? so, most of the time, we just berjimba dan berfoya-foya. but i was quite disappointed because i didnt have the chance to eat my all time favourite, laksa penang. shit... i've been craving for it. my friends always ask me "why dont you just eat it somewhere not in penang like here. we got laksa shack kan?" the answer is simple, "it's not the same lah." we should eat laksa penang in penang and so like others; laksa sarawak to be eaten in sarawak, laksa johor to be eaten in johor and etc... cerewet kan? so what. that's how i see things. everybody's different right?

ARCHIDAY was great. so do the tiredness. ouh sorry. archiday is kinda like a feast for architecture students. so, loads of activities and not forgetting the preparations to be participated. did i mention that i'm in part 1 or in simpler words, budak sem 1, the juniors. so ike of courselah jadi kuli kan? sigh...

now, i'm effing busy with the final project for archittectural communucation subject. plus, byk gile test and assignments kot... shit. nasib baik ckit je subjects for final exam; economics, physics and ctu (or agama). huh...

please God, be with me. always...

new love

i'm deeply in love with Yuna, Jason Mraz, John Mayer n Paramore